Wednesday

My grandmother's viewing was yesterday and it was absolutely beautiful. Her room was brimming with flowers. Which, not gonna lie, gave me a headache after a couple of hours. :) Grandpa looked great, real strong and healthy. A few weeks ago he was in the hospital to have colon cancer removed. He came home two and a half weeks before she passed away. I'm just so glad they were together at the end.

Honestly, when I first heard that something had happened I thought Grandpa had passed. Our minds  had all just been on him for the past few weeks. But now he's recovering quickly and doing very well. As for everyone else... I cried when I saw her yesterday. I was scared I wasn't going to because I hadn't already, but I saw her and tears came. She looked so beautiful, and did NOT look like an 80 year-old woman.

The funeral is today. Is it wrong to look forward to that? I mean, everyone will get to see each other, and see her. I guess I want everyone to see her to see how beautiful she looks. What I'm not looking forward to is singing. I don't know if I'll be able to get through it. I'm singing Ave Maria near the end of the ceremony, so of course I'll be nice and nervous by then. But its for Gramma, so maybe that will ground me. We'll see.

I'm not much in the writing mood right now. Tomorrow I'll have more details of how the funeral went, along with the success (or lack of) of the song. This will be a long day.